[Thoughts of John's own kid push their way into his mind. Now he'll never get to meet her after all. Nope nope nope, just gonna Not Think About That.]

I can't believe something finally was able to kill you. I mean, literally everybody expected me to die in battle but I sorta figured whenever death came for you you'd just punch him in the face and keep on going.

[He tries to laugh, to distract himself from the weight of being dead and what exactly that means for everyone back home.]

I don't think I can get used to you bein' older than me, Alexander. It's weird.