None of it was planned. We couldn't do anything about it, that's why it hurts so much. (that they were both just kids, powerless in the face the greater powers around them to do anything at all to help their father. nahyuta was taken advantage of, apollo was thousands of miles away and unable to even know the situation of his own family. there's still a smidgen of guilt in his heart for trying to forget them, keep them all out of his mind.

it's the mention of dhurke's badge that gets a reaction of him. his face turns to nahyuta, almost in scared wonder. the thought bubbles up in his mind, slowly at first, that yes, dhurke gave him his attorney's badge before the trial began.

it hits him with the force of a falling piano in mere seconds what that notion meant. even nahyuta wasn't able to pry it from dhurke at the detention center, he of all people knew just how important that badge was, possibly even as much as apollo protects his own badge. he lets it sink in, allowing the meaning behind his father's action to really set itself in his mind to understand what it means.) You know... there's a lot of things I would change if I could.

(he turns away from nahyuta again, and at first glance, apollo appears fine. but the fists clenching his shirt sleeves, coupled with the cracking strength in his voice. turn just the right way and you'd be able to see him crying, a slow, steady stream of tears as he looks at nothing in particular.) But... not him. I couldn't have asked for a better dad.

(this time, much quieter.) ... he really loved me, didn't he.