(he's silent as nahyuta speaks, patiently and politely waiting for him to finish, give apollo a chance to collect his thoughts on the matter. he held no grudge against queen amara or rayfa, they were as much victims of ga'ran's tyranny as anyone, even more so. and he just couldn't bring himself to be upset at people who were like him, dragged back into this situation because of dhurke.

it takes him longer than a few moments, allowing nahyuta's words time to sink in, fists clenching against his sleeves in a small part of dislike at his own actions.) I... I don't hold it against them, I swear. Queen Amara and Her Benevolence were dragged into this as much as we were. No one is at fault, and I don't want to feel like this, but... the first thing he did after sending me away was have another kid.

(it stung. it stung and prodded at his heart more than he thought it would, more than he wanted it to. none of this was fair to anyone, and yet he was being selfish in his reasons.) When I first found out about her in court, I... I'd be lying if I.. if I said I didn't feel... (replaced.)

... I'm sorry.