[ It wasn't entirely something he'd ever wholly considered.
The idea that once he got Yuu and got away from both humans and vampires, if he would ever need Krul. A part of him argued that he didn't want anything else to do with the vampires from home anymore, though another stubbornly clung onto that ridiculous sense of loyalty that had been brought about by serving under Krul herself for those four years. He remembered just how initially he'd intended to help her when Crowley and Ferid sprung that attack without warning during that last battle, only following her orders to leave her and escape with Yuu with a small level of reluctance.
If he didn't remotely care about her or need her, why did he even feel concerned when she'd been in danger? ]
If I outright said I didn't, it would be a lie.
[ To a fault, Mika had always been painfully honest and it showed here, unable to hide the truth of the matter here. Yuu would always be his number one person in his life but maybe there was something like gratitude he felt now, as if she hadn't turned him four years ago? He wouldn't have lived long enough to reunite with Yuu again and be able to see that bright, vibrant smile of his.
He'd hated that part of him but was slowly coming to accept it.
Something that she pointed out, bringing to light that indeed he really had given in to what she'd been trying to push him into doing. Telling him he needed to do it but he'd refused to do so before he reunited with Yuu in the fear that he'd just see him as nothing more than a monster; like all the other vampires out there. ]
I... wasn't given much of a choice.
[ Which was entirely true. The person in question whom he'd drank from had ensured that much, using convincing words and actions to break what was left of his resolve on the matter. It hurt so bad to keep fighting at that point that he'd given in, to do something he never thought he'd be able to force himself to do.
Explaining why there was a small smile on his face now along with an almost gentle look in his eyes. Something that had only begun to appear more recently where Yuu was involved. ]
Fighting it anymore wasn't something I had in me. Yuu... he convinced me to give in and I ended up drinking from him.
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The idea that once he got Yuu and got away from both humans and vampires, if he would ever need Krul. A part of him argued that he didn't want anything else to do with the vampires from home anymore, though another stubbornly clung onto that ridiculous sense of loyalty that had been brought about by serving under Krul herself for those four years. He remembered just how initially he'd intended to help her when Crowley and Ferid sprung that attack without warning during that last battle, only following her orders to leave her and escape with Yuu with a small level of reluctance.
If he didn't remotely care about her or need her, why did he even feel concerned when she'd been in danger? ]
If I outright said I didn't, it would be a lie.
[ To a fault, Mika had always been painfully honest and it showed here, unable to hide the truth of the matter here. Yuu would always be his number one person in his life but maybe there was something like gratitude he felt now, as if she hadn't turned him four years ago? He wouldn't have lived long enough to reunite with Yuu again and be able to see that bright, vibrant smile of his.
He'd hated that part of him but was slowly coming to accept it.
Something that she pointed out, bringing to light that indeed he really had given in to what she'd been trying to push him into doing. Telling him he needed to do it but he'd refused to do so before he reunited with Yuu in the fear that he'd just see him as nothing more than a monster; like all the other vampires out there. ]
I... wasn't given much of a choice.
[ Which was entirely true. The person in question whom he'd drank from had ensured that much, using convincing words and actions to break what was left of his resolve on the matter. It hurt so bad to keep fighting at that point that he'd given in, to do something he never thought he'd be able to force himself to do.
Explaining why there was a small smile on his face now along with an almost gentle look in his eyes. Something that had only begun to appear more recently where Yuu was involved. ]
Fighting it anymore wasn't something I had in me. Yuu... he convinced me to give in and I ended up drinking from him.